UGH! so little frustrated, Im either at 156 or 154 .. My body just wont stay at an even weight, Im going nuts. I've also been eating like a cow, I go back to university tomorrow so hopefully that will help with me not eating so much.
Good note though : So i was over at the guys house i use to date am still dating... who knows.. Getting to the point.. I was laying down and i guess my shirt had pulled up a little and he leaned in for a kiss grabbed my waist and was like why can I feel your bones, Why are your lululemon pants so baggy again? Look at your arms their so bony.. Whats going on? I told him I had been loosing weight so i could start feeling better about myself. He started getting really mean saying no one would love me like that and I dont know why you would want to look like skin and bones, And I obviously got embarrassed and felt like crying, and he grabbed my face (gently not hard or anything) and just said to me " Jen, you know your beautiful wether you way a bazillion pounds or nothing" That meant lots to me.
He also decided he was goinmg to lift me up to kiss him ... Never have I let him because I felt like i was to big, But it was easy for him to lift me like a child.. No weight at all it seemed to him. Made me feel great I liked that he noticed that my hip bones were showing again. Exciting.
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