weekly update

so the social.. turned out horrible, ended up having one drink and being hammered.. good way to show EVERYONE im not eating again, anyways ended up binging and drinking so much alchohol i couldnt stand, my boyfriend had to take me home after 20 minutes at the social and i practically tried breaking up with him. I told him how ugly i was and how he deserves better and that im huge and he deserves a pretty skinny girl.. clearly im fucked and i dont know how much i truly told him, anyways the next day i apologized and so on. On to this week at school bake sale and they brought the extras into our class... hello wannabe binge, i asked to move the desserts away from me because I was trying to be "skinny" and low and behold some girl comments it sounds like you have an eating disorder. and I was like actually i struggle with an eating disorder but thanks for that. i cant believe anyone would actually say that and someone who isnt even my friend like fuck right off. anyways i was under 600 calories everyday this week, but have only gone to kickboxing 3 times this week, i fucked up my back (N) so xray will be coming soon. hope everyones doing good and eating little.
xo

social?

hey guys! so today has been pretty decent jumped on the scale and am 153, the numbers are going down, im aiming for 145 by the 22nd but if it comes faster i will not complain hehe. Anyways, i have a social to go to tonight, thoughts on what i should wear? if i should drink or not? and if so what should i drink!
i hope everyones day is going pretty well remember restriction will help the numbers go down, keep your exercise up as well, if you feel faint relax for a few and then get back to it we dont want any fatties right ;)
xo

im baaaaack

okay guys. Here we are again. 155 lbs, skinny but not where i want to be. I want people to look and say holy... shes skinny. I want my bones to stick out. I can count my ribs so far, but i want my spine to stick out more. I would die for this. What kind of diets are you guys on? im thinking of doing the ABC diet to get back on track. Im consuming around 900-1000 calories a day with a calorie deficiet of around 1500 calories a day. I want to be 145 as my goal weight in the 130's would be a dream come true. I constantly am shaking from such a calorie deficeit but it just tells me to keep going. I hope you guys havent given up on me!

ill try and post regularly, and if anyone would like to start chatting back and forth ill send them my email! just comment on here or any other post.~