so the social.. turned out horrible, ended up having one drink and being hammered.. good way to show EVERYONE im not eating again, anyways ended up binging and drinking so much alchohol i couldnt stand, my boyfriend had to take me home after 20 minutes at the social and i practically tried breaking up with him. I told him how ugly i was and how he deserves better and that im huge and he deserves a pretty skinny girl.. clearly im fucked and i dont know how much i truly told him, anyways the next day i apologized and so on. On to this week at school bake sale and they brought the extras into our class... hello wannabe binge, i asked to move the desserts away from me because I was trying to be "skinny" and low and behold some girl comments it sounds like you have an eating disorder. and I was like actually i struggle with an eating disorder but thanks for that. i cant believe anyone would actually say that and someone who isnt even my friend like fuck right off. anyways i was under 600 calories everyday this week, but have only gone to kickboxing 3 times this week, i fucked up my back (N) so xray will be coming soon. hope everyones doing good and eating little.
xo
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